My Kingdom

When you hold me what’s going through that mind of yours? When we talk and laugh what are you thinking? When I talk to another guy why do you get jealous? What am I to you?

I want to tell you how I feel about you. I really do. I’m scared though that you will turn away. That you will not look at me the way you do now. I’m scared of you leaving me. Can you blame me? You are a great guy and I do have a lot of feelings for you. I care a lot about you. 

How can I find out what you’re thinking? That’s easy yet so hard. I want to know and I want to share with you. I don’t want things to change really. The only thing I want to change is I want to know how you feel. I want to know more about you…. I want you to call me your girl. When a guy is talking to me I want you to know I’m only thinking about you. I want you to be my man. I want to know that when you’re talking to a girl that you’re just talking.

I want us to be an “us”. I wonder if I’m wrong in thinking like this but I won’t know till you tell me. What you don’t know is that I don’t want to wear the pants in a relationship. I don’t want to be controlled but I’m really not a controlling person. I like to have a open communication to where we can talk about anything and you take care of me and we can hang out and laugh. I wear my heart on my sleeve honestly. It’s hard for me to show that because I want people to see me as a strong person.

I want to talk to you about all this. I want you to see this. I want to taste your lips and know that they are just mine. Feel your hands trace my body and know they are mine. Look into your beautiful brown eyes and know that they see me for me. Have you smile while we embrace and have that to myself.

Now, I just have to find a way to tell you all of this.

(Source: rougefawkes)